Questions are submitted by participants during spiritual practice classes
with Yogacharya O'Brian.
It seems to me that as the awareness of my essential Self grows stronger, so
does the ego. The more I engage in spiritual practice, the more I am self-critical
and aware of my ego-drives. How can I get free of this?
As our awareness is clarified and we are more capable of, and interested in,
observing our states of mind and consciousness, we can initially be more aware
of our shortcomings. In the past we might not have noticed, or cared too much
about thoughts, speech, and behavior that were out of alignment with our
highest goals. When we take up a spiritual practice, we bring greater attention
to that. Whatever we focus our attention on is strengthened. This maxim gives
us the solution to this dilemma. Instead of focusing on falling short of your goal
or expectations, put your attention on your progress, on what is positive, and
affirming.
You can also simply notice how the critical mind works. Just observe it without
trying to change it or buy into everything it presents. Know that you are the
observer, the witness, the eternal Self that makes observation possible. Subtly
shift your identification from the ego self to the essential Self as you do this. The
more you meditate through to the level of superconsciousness and rest in that,
the more you will be established in awareness of your true Self.
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Enlightenment Journal | Spring 2013
On the Path: Questions & Answers